Welcome to my updated site. Take a peek around. Enjoy yourself.
And in my choppy writing, I would just like to say- that I am still choking on jealousy and there is where I’m not perfect, but I”m sure we will catch our breaths
you know- i was cut off now, 2 times in my reply by choppy internet at my hotel. The jealousy is not mine, but I like how divine intervention allowed for the notation of our souls noticed to be in alignment- but again, I was referring to the psychic puke I like, informally ate. Leave it to Benji Madden to formalize it.
Anyway, I just want to offer, before I try to sleep- that I am like a gay male inside- I preferred to go to gay male clubs I was like the coolest. I didn’t think Mike would understand me. So I gave him a beautiful hot chick. I didn’t mean to sell you short. It’s obvious I didn’t know what the heck I was doing- just crying over some mean people and giving my life to a higher good. I can’t freaking remember how to play Jewel. I want to string my guitar upside down and play with my left hand. I think I’m dumb- mayby just happy.
In the reply that got cut off- I went on to say that you are a saint. I hope you don’t want to cut my head off with a chainsaw. I mean, yeah, it’s not something I like, can lift either, but I hear you can rent one for 50 bucks from my psychic interjection. Well, not them personally-they said that they want to feel like everything in thier life to be vindicated without predjudice- and if they may- ask for that with dignity. They are willing and they want to be able to make a truce and accept being truly moral and happy and aligned with thier morals. Every human being I take part in helping out says that. You are going to love our friend Andrea. She’s half Japanese, a quarter German and a quarter Polish.
Emptiness should always be defined, not used for identifying purposes, but used as relative to a quizzical, meaningful question about what it actually is in an actual instance of the emptiness you are trying to define. Where a human has no other satisfyingly equivical comraderie is where the emptiness compounds and takes on a negative force with no name. It is nobody’s fault.
Anna- When I heard about you years ago, and, I’m just going to say it- I was a confused youth. I was following my Buddhist light that I had from within, and I gave Benji Madden (oh, we have to talk- *SCREAMS*) a shot with a lifepath others told me HE DID NOT DESERVE (!) because it was in the name of Jesus, for he and his brothers to revolutionize Christian rock (see how ill-percieved, but ahhh how rightfully wrong I had it)… I made the worst decision ever. I found out he is Aryan filth. All of his transgressions he puked on other people and I was left crying in horror in 4 diminsions- only to recall partical traces of the curse in my raver algorithim- congealed by his lying deceit when he trusted an article- a napkin- I had entrusted to his person of authority for the delivery of my one up that WAS PLANNED AS A TEST FOR ME BY people who I never knew wanted to test me for the reason- yes, here it is , the reason- they wanted me to see how bad they felt to be shortchanged in life. I cannot stress that enough. They admitted to being so jealous of how I recognized myself (my spirit, I was one of 4 people in my High school to have facial piercings- and the only freshman who clubbed and had facial piercings) and when I was psychicly invaded- well, I felt indescribable. I was in denial of my life from birth to age 6- and they knew more than I did. I was going through puberty… Anna, our souls aligned positively- I tried many hairstyles, and they were hungup on the fact that we had like, the same honor with the long brown hair and the wavy thing in the front. You were older- and I thought in my delusional feedings that I regurgitated in that context meant somehow that I was a stupid little girl who could never figure out love. So between not even sobs, but the surrendering of any interpretions of the fleets of tears wrenched from my body as I fought to surrender them- I did it in the name of love for Jesus in my offering that I did not need to make. And Benji has never said thanks. I am not only beginning to feel my rightful hurt, but I am regaining my positive truth. All truth is positive, and I am making progress. Anna, I would never have made that decision to trust him. And his song- spits in the face of people who have money. I made $5.00 an hour at Boardwalk Fries. That job was so cool… They knew to see me if they were broke. Yeah, walk around the corner, Art (my boss)- lemme give this free funnelcake to my broke teenagers, they’ll share it! Him- perhaps I was too generous with the napkin. The tree that it came from will forever be imortalized in God’s memory. One could be compelled, in Benji’s honor to never use a napkin again. In Chinese culture I am born the year of the Boar- I was slaughtered for being naturally too clean, and not breaking a sweat. I was personified as one of those boars that has the horns that may or may not grow inward and annihlate the brain if honor of some divinity fails to intervene. I am this animal in spirit to the instance where I am fearful of my life ending, as my horns begin to grow, and I am becoming aware of them, FINDING MY OWN HONOR FEARFULLY as I am becoming aware that time in this form is running short, not knowing quite why and feeling cheated but to animal to know to complain…who is there to hear my cry, as they are making thier transactions on whether I live or die? In my bold forgiveness in Benji’s said faith (Christianity)- I thought he was in this instance. Never stray from your beliefs. Buddhism is the truth at it’s core, ready to be resurrected from the spin that testers of faith have put on it through the sands of time. Have you read Eckhart Tolle? Mensch. Bottom line is my soul percieved you as good- and you should have been the older sister I never had. I thought- whoa, she’s like me- I can watch them all be famous… (And my indescribably perfect friend, I know now that in between gasps for air [as I was drowning in a sea of thier self induced apathetics, redirected as a scud missle to everything that I am— hm, hotel key broke, I have to use this one again[[[ that these people said were so shallow in thier taunting, I was dead on the floor- but somehow eating Benji’s psychic puke.) I have eaten an entire pizza. I love you. I will see you on the 29th. I hope you don’t hate me, Anna. I was young. You now have the truth. Your only fault is that you were your own brand of perfect at a time that I needed to know you and I was munipulated against for grins and giggles. I forgive them, too.
YES! I love your new blog. WordPress FTW
Kisses from Chile
Hi Anna! Looking forward to what you post here!
Hi! First of all I am happy that you are on wordpress. Were you on WP originally and just got a paid URL? I don’t even know not my business. I saw your last blog talking about your book, and daily things that you do. I think it’s really cool that you are here, and I am excited to see what you will write about again.
Thanks for being an awesome person, and good luck with writing .
Loving the fact that you moved to WordPress. It’s SO much better and easy to use and seriously, the new layout is amazing!
I’m not a book-worm to tell the truth and a book needs to be really really good and interesting to me to read it BUT I’ve been waiting for yours to be released. I’m sure it’ll be great! 2014, please hurry!
Lastly, I wanted to tell you that you’re an inspiration to a lot of people, including my dear friend Tensh_iie, and I think you’re a really cool person! (and that, not because you’re Mike’s wife). I hope you’ll keep updating your blog more often now
Cheers from Greece!
At first I LOVE the new layout and it’s great to see you on WordPress as well. It’s a good site to make a blog or anything related to that.
I visit your site for years now and I have to admit that I probably never wanted to read a book as much as yours. I’ve been waiting forever, but… 2014 is not that faaar away haha Writing takes time and it’s best when it’s not done in a haste.
I wanna thank your for inspiring me, because one of your blog post brought me back to writing. I started in 2003 and stopped for several years but your post gave me confidence again and I re-started. I might not be good or whatever, but I have fun doing it and I am very willing to learn. So… thank you, thank you very much from the bottom of my heart!
I think that you are truly awesome. When I found out that you were an writer I was amazed. You became my idol just on the fact that you are an author and I write stories and want to become a author. I tried looking up books by you but came up short. My idol is mshinoda he got me into graphic design, I always wanted to do something with art, but thanks to learning about it from him I study it now.
Not saying that I only like you because you are an author, but you seem nice and friendly and it would be awesome to meet you and mshinoda. I love LP they helped me so much, and changed me to be the person I am today. I think its just awesome that I can place a comment on here, its been a dream to write some of my idols, and now I am doing that right now. =]
I really like the new theme! Were you on WordPress before? I just think, I would have noticed that…XD. Feel free to check out my blog, if you’re interested. I just post there anything I find on the internet.
I used to post a lot of Linkin Park stuff there, mostly fan reviews, or the organization for the Twitter Party (still gobsmacked I got a Loveline shoutout XD), but it got a bit overboard and now I’ve created another blog called LPFanCorner. If you’re interested in fan’s concert reviews etc., you can find the link by clicking my name.
I really like WordPress, because it allows you to switch styles and content in a short time. So, have fun with the new site!
By the way, I always wanted to ask you about your favourite books? I mean books that really mean something to you and that you will never forget. Mine are Toni Morrison’s “Paradise”, Cormac McCarthy’s “The Road” & Richard Powers “Plowing the Dark”. I’m studying American Literature and my final exam is next Wednesday, so please cross your fingers.
In case you haven’t seen, WordPress has a cool widget called GoodReads. If you make an account there, you can make a collection of your favourite books and display them on your sidebar. Might be something for an author…
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